As I said in my last post, I’ve been wanting to get more personal in this little blog for awhile. Personally, I love to read about other women and their journeys. Now, I’d love to share mine, too. So today, I want to tell you about the day I realized my life needed to change.
You might know that I’m a special ed teacher. But this is actually my second career. Yep! Before that, I completed a degree in Literature and Communications and worked for three years as a marketing assistant and an event planner. What made me do this complete U turn? Let me explain…
When I was a little girl, I wanted to be a teacher.
I was good in school, I loved it, my teachers always appreciated me and it was just something I thought I would like to do.
But as I grew up, I realized I was good at many other things. I loved reading and writing. I enjoyed acting. I was interested in what happened in the world. I wanted to travel. I liked to be with people and organize things. And so, it became more difficult to pinpoint exactly what I wanted to do.
In university, I decided to study literature and communications, thinking I could get my masters later and teach at the college level. Along the way though, event planning started to appeal to me more. It seemed glamorous and looked like something I would thrive at. So after graduation (and after my six-month backpacking trip in Australia), I started to look for a job in that field.
I was first hired as a marketing assistant for a hardware store chain. It was not the ideal job, but I thought it was a great entry level position. A year later, the event planning department of the company was looking for someone. I was a shoe-in. I spent two years planning conventions, golf tournaments, trading shows and the like. I was good at it and time flew by.
Then, one day, I was in a meeting with the President and a bunch of other important executives and something happened to me. I call it my epiphany. I was sitting there, listening to these men talk about how much profit the company made and how we needed to increase that, blah blah blah.
I realized I did not want to be a part of that anymore.
What was I doing with my life? Was that really why I was on this Earth? To help rich men get even richer? This made no sense. It certainly wasn’t what I had envisioned for myself. I wanted to make a difference, but not that way. Suddenly, my job seemed pointless.
Later that evening, I had diner with two girlfriends and right there, at the restaurant table, I burst into tears. I explained how I was feeling to them. They were not expecting this, but they were supportive.
As the days, weeks and months went by, I got more and more miserable at work. I would hide in the photocopy room or the bathroom to cry. I kept thinking that what I was doing was meaningless. Money has never been my main value and there I was, in a company that cared mostly about profit.
The day I caught myself having really dark thoughts, I knew I had to do something. I went to see my doctor. I also saw a therapist a few times. But what really helped was enrolling in a free career guidance workshop at my local employment office.
I learned that my job was not aligned with my personality and my core beliefs.
I’m someone who wants to help people, to make a difference in their lives on a personal level, not in their wallet. I’m also a woman who likes to do her own thing, to lead, to be her own boss and not have someone looking over my shoulder constantly, which was what I was dealing with at the time.
My counselor suggested that I look for another event planning job, with a different company, one that was more humane. So I sent my resume to a few places and I even got a job offer from a well known makeup brand. But in the end, I knew in my heart that it was not the solution.
While I was polishing my resume and going on interviews, I also had time to do some soul searching. That’s when the idea of becoming a teacher came (back) to me. It was what I’ve been wanting to do since I was five years old. Who was I not to listen to that little girl? Maybe she knew better than adult me what I needed.
And so, I resigned from my event planning position and started my journey to become a teacher. And I’ve never regretted it.
It’s still unbelievable to me how one small moment changed my whole life. I thank the Universe for it every single day.
Have you ever had an epiphany? A moment that transformed your life completely? How did you deal with it? I would love to know more about your journey. Tell me about it in the comments below, on Instagram or on Facebook!
Until next time,